Sometimes, when one reads manga too excessively, hungering purposelessly for more and reading it for the sake of reading it, one will feel sad. Then a post such as this one will be written after retrospection. Because right now I do feel sad and unproductive and stupid and i’m starting to want to hate anime. In my context actually, anime is a waste of time.
FFFFFFUUUUU no fuck me for saying that, but I really think so. What is anime? Anime is a hobby, an obsession just like many others out there like K-Pop, and anime is nothing special. An anime fan is pretty much the same as a Harry Potter Fan or a Twilight fan. Anime is entertainment, just as watching a movie is. And fact is, for my case at least, anime is a waste of a lot of time, period. Don’t you think that reading books is a much better option than watching anime? By reading books, you enhance your linguistic abilities, seek deeper thoughts and themes and get pulled in by the fantastic writing. Reading manga/watching anime is the lazy version of reading books. Too lazy to read all those pages, so instead, by reading manga, you get visual aids with conversational dialogue only.
How can reading manga be better than reading books? Books are definitely more beneficial. Anime is not applicable or useful in real life too. Obviously you might learn things when references are being used, but you won’t get the complete history or background of the object. For example, I learnt about Faust and Mephisto from a webtoon, but I only know that Faust sold his soul to the devil for knowledge. Shallow. Nothing about the meaning or insights i’m supposed to gain when reading about it when it’s referenced in a book. Today while out with my family for lunch, I felt so inferior to my brothers when they conversed because they had so much general knowledge and were so well-read. And one of them actively started reading classics like The Great Gatsby while I had never even heard of that book before. Yeah, I’ve heard of books like Troy: Lord of the Silver Bow. I know of animes like Chuunibyou Demo Koi Ga Shitai and I could possibly name huge numbers of anime characters that my brothers haven’t even heard of, and tell them how Kakashi’s childhood made me cry when I witnessed the beauty of friendship.
But how could all these compare to the themes or knowledge gained after reading dystopian novels like Fahrenheit 451? And who in the real world would discuss anime as an adult? Plus my knowledge of history isn’t comprehensive at all (it’s pathetic really) and no way in hell is Hetalia going to help that. Even George Orwell’s Animal Farm could give some insights onto the Russian Revolution. Books impart so much knowledge, and the key is linguistics, because one’s vocabulary needs to be extensive. Communication is a part of everyday life and it would be essential to express yourself clearly and precisely.
Look at my frequently used vocabulary: hot, cool, awesome, gay, shit, good, so, like, nice –how…..what’s another word for pathetic?! Never mind. Back to anime.. Getting addicting to anime is really worrisome. It’s like taking a drug, detrimental though it gives short-term, fleeting pleasure. And long-term misery. I need to stop even though it’s painful. Speaking of this point, I guess I somehow knew that anime would have to only occur in a phase of life, and stop soon. That’s why this blog is called The Passing Otaku. With her fleeting adventures. Haha.
What reason is there for me to continue anime anyway? I’m not even a blogger that blogs to seek depth and pursue deeper meanings in anime, unlike some others. For example, this is a group of serious bloggers who actually seek meaning in anime. Just look at one of their posts: Colloquium: Literary and Religious Allusions in Shin Sekai Yori up to Episode 5. As for me, what do I read manga for? For useless reasons. I read manga to feel satisfied, to finish a romance story and feel contented, to satiate lust through yaoi, to ogle at hot characters, to feel alive through a strong female lead, pleased with a happy ending that was artificial. I am bound to these short bursts of happiness in the 2D. The sheer amount of time I waste on anime really scares me. What’s so good and special about anime? Why must I continue when there’s obviously more viable choices? I could start studying for next year now, and try flushing anime out of my life.
And then again, I read another post by the best author ever. And I began thinking of anime and how it has impacted my life. There are some lame examples of course, such as Kyoko of Skip Beat helping me in Speech and Drama classes. This, I swear, is true! She taught me to close my eyes, become the character, think as the character does, and act naturally. I was one of the best students for that class you know! xD And for another example, Air Gear and Fairy Tail both inspired me to train harder, to persevere and not to crumble under pressure. Many characters have inspired me, though book characters have done the same too. I somehow like comparing Itachi and Snape (Harry Potter). They both became my favorite characters of their respective series, but only after the revelation that they were anti-heroes.
And anime got me onto blogging, where so many closet geniuses were hiding at. Reading some posts were really enriching, and i’m thankful for them. Got me into Japanese songs, made me intrigued by the unique way the lyrics made sense. Lyrics of Japanese songs are always meaningful. Anime influences my emotions easily and brought to me a wide array of characters which sometimes inspired me. I think it really shaped the way I view the world too. And so I enjoy anime, although I think it’s becoming a form of escapee for me. It should stop when i’m being over-reliant on it, and taking refuge in the warm shelter of anime, where I mostly waste time reading shoujo romance stories instead of practicing Math questions.
So….. moderation is key…? O_O I have no idea what conclusion i’ve reached. Anime is not something I can give up easily. It’s been with me my whole life. But I guess it’s high time to concentrate on the real world too, and gain knowledge so I don’t become an ignorant brat. And stop I should stop being lazy. This blog post shall be proof of my thoughts and resolutions. I wonder if my post flow will be diminished after this.. (but I still have more romance recommendations up my sleeve. Heh.)
The end. I think I just need to loosen anime’s control over me.
P.S. I’m sorry if this isn’t coherent. I fell asleep before writing everything haha. Oh well. All’s well that ends well.
(I was really afraid when I realized that I couldn’t even finish one chapter of any book without feeling bored and wanting to read manga instead. AND WTH I WOULD ONLY READ STUFF WITH THE ROMANCE GENRE. I didn’t believe my laziness and….idk, one-sidedness(?)! But I guess now i’m going through anime rehabilitation lol. Starting from reading the pile of school books next to me, i’m going to break free from the Curse of the Inherent Procrastination inflicted by anime. Obsessiveness always goes wrong.)
Anime, y u so addicting!?!?!?
Self, y u so weak!!?!??!?
Edit: Do read this article, ‘Is Anime an Inferior Medium?‘– it’s a really insightful piece.