Hi!!! Haha this is not supposed to happen, but there’s this really strong urge to just post something here again even though I should not be distracted.
BUT GOOD NEWS, I JUST FINISHED MY MATHS ASSIGNMENT! Lol. Okay uhh.. these few days, i’ve been seriously determined to concentrate on the upcoming end-of-year exams. I wanna do well so that when it’s over, I can finally enjoy myself and not regret/worry about stupid mistakes that I had made. But this blog as well as anime keeps popping out in my thoughts –like its just there forever! xD So there’s this inner turmoil.
It could be PMS, or maybe it’s just my pent up feelings as a girl (I don’t know about guys). But there are times in this world that I just feel so screwed up, so stupid and so empty. Maybe it’s a major teenage identity crisis again, but I’ll never forget the dark periods in my life this year and last year when I couldn’t even say that I was alive.
I was seriously like that, during the end-year exam period last year. I didn’t see the purpose of me living and felt like absolute shit, because I had no purpose in life. I was completely absorbed by anime, but even while reading manga I was stricken by guilt because there were ongoing exams, but I continued reading. I just reading on and on. Continue reading →